Out of no where, a sound came into my mind when I was taking a walk in Audubon Park:
What am I born for? Is that what I am living for today?
I know for sure the answer for the first half question. But for the second half, I paused.
“Making the best use of your time, for the days are evil. (Ephesians 5:16)”
Emotions are like waves, we all may have up and downs. When lifted up, we feel like to kiss every flower on the ground and motivated to realize many dreams. But when cast down, every single thing turned against us. There seems to be no hope, but infinite suffering and bitterness. Wise ones will be aware of the current status, and adjust their emotion back to normal. That’s essential, especially when our emotions are in a high position. The higher we reach, the severer injury when we drop from it. Emotions have to be led by us, not the other way around.
Then, the up-trend line represent the fullness of life. I mean this in Christ. Aware of it or not, every single day, we will grow in Christ if we walk in the light. If I don’t go to church, don’t read, don’t talk, even don’t think, I know the Spirit is within me. But personally, I would say the exposure to outside world will let me grow faster. Childhood is the fastest growing time. Then as we grow, my sensation is getting blunt, not physically, but spiritually. I might not be so glad as the first time seeing a snail strolling after the rain. I am getting used to all the beauty that God had laid in front of my eyes. That’s why the line is up trend, but convex.
It took me four years to paint like Raphael, but a lifetime to paint like a child.
Back to the embrace of God. Anyone can life for what they are born for, only if they seek to.